Suicide
I’m so down right now. I feel like I hope this eating disorder kills me soon. I no longer care. If I had no fear of death, I’d off myself right now. But I’m a coward so I can just hope ed does it for me. How pathetic.
Blob
I never thought I’d get this big! I’m such a failure. Somehow I went from 89 lb anorexic to 204lb compulsive binge eater and the meds that are helping with my mood are increasing my hunger even more. I’m feeling very triggered by my weight right now. I have got to get a grip and lose a shit ton of weight. Watch as if all….. Slowly but surely.
Hw- 204
Cw- 204
Lw was 89.6
A million mini goal weights in between..
Ugw is 84
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A new beginningĀ
I turn 36 on the 11th. I will lose this gross weight. This will be my year! I feel like it’s a fresh start. I need to hope. I need this. I know I can do it. Food is the enemy and I will prevail!
Spoken
Sadness engulfs me
Strangles me
Unravels me
When will it end?
I pray
God free me from this pit of despair
Help me see
The lesson in this
That there must be
It must go!
And yet it doesn’t.
I’m doing something wrong?
I’m doing everything I’m supposed to so don’t go there
I’m drowning
I can’t breathe
I need you God
I know your there
Hiding?
Please hear my cries
God and people
I am blessed
And I am grateful
I am hurting though too
And I need you.
Kat williams
A truth for me
So relate…
You don’t know me at all
Self pity? For attention? Really people!? You have no clue. How dare you pigeonhole me! I’m so through with this shit. And, for the record, you cannot tell how someone is doing because of what you see. Ask if you want to know or say nothing. Its that simple. Really
Lost
There’s just too much. Please, God, no more.
Thank you that I have somewhere I can go to regroup. My mind is spinning in so many directions. I can’t think clear. I lose time. I to things and forget. I’m here but I’m not. Its as if I’m out of my body and floating aimlessly God knows where.
I pray love, peace and healing all around.
I feel lost. My soul wanders.
Prayer journal template
My prayer. My heart
My prayer is to be used by God to spread His hope, love and healing to the broken. I pray to be completely healed myself , not for selfish reasons, but so I can reflect Him to others. I know He is working in mine and others lives. My heart goes out to those who do not yet know Him and His love for them. I pray against the spirit of addiction, the spirit of doubt, the spirit of hopelessness and depression in Jesus name. Please use me Lord for your glory. I love you, God, with all that is within me. Thank you Lord. In Jesus precious name. Amen
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